My devotion asked 2 thought provoking questions this morning:
- What part of your story deserves revisiting, this time looking for a look of who He is?
- Can you look back over you life and see God’s hand at work?
The answer for me is YES and YES, where do I start. I will start with the first question, I have so many parts to my story that deserve revisiting to see God’s hand at work in my life. One that keeps popping in my head is my gift shop. Most of you that know me, know I opened a gift shop when I moved back to Campbellsville in 2006. If I’m being honest, I think I have something to learn here today, because I’m not really sure where this is going. Scary territory peeps… 🙂
I had managed a children’s story after college in Lexington and loved the whole environment, I couldn’t wait to get this venture up and running. Looking back, I see so much about who I was then and what my goals were. (to say the least, they were off track) It’s hard to admit really, but I didn’t have what it took to run my own business. I was to self involved, I wasn’t all in. I would have never said that then, and to be honest I would have been in denial. Looking back does good for some things in life, we can see where we have grown. When the reality came that I had to close my store, I was mostly concerned about looking like a failure. I was so consumed with what people thought about me, I had no clue about life. The reasons my store didn’t work out is because I wasn’t dedicated to it, I gave it only a bit of my time, I passed the work load off and I wasn’t willing to put in what it took to make it work. While at the time I thought my reasoning and excuses were valid, I can clearly just say now I didn’t have what it took. I think that it is ok to admit that, I can look back and see God at work even in this time of my life. I mostly ignored Him, I knew what to do but chose not to do it. I was selfish.
Have you ever been selfish? Only wanting what you want without any regard for anyone else, especially God. Admit it now, this probably happens daily. I am learning to be selfless and I like the look and feel. I like doing for others, I love giving and sharing all that I have. Allen can definitely vouch for that, he is so sweet to go right along with all of my crazy thoughts and sharing ideas.
So, to touch on the second question. If you will truly look back you can see God at work in every second of your life. He was with me on numerous college spring breaks, you can just imagine. He was with me through bad relationships that led me to the love of my life, he is always with my family in a mighty way. He has saved us so many times, near death experiences: cancer, falling off of roofs, 4 wheeler wreck, addiction, suicide, surgeries, car accidents. I could go on and on, His hand is always at work in my life and yours. I want to encourage you to take a moment today to look back on all of His mercies on you and be thankful.
All of the events of your past have led you to today, right now, they are your story. Let God’s story of your life come alive, share it, shout it from the mountain tops. Honor Him for what He is doing right this minute, while owning my own shop was a short lived dream of mine. I can now see that it is just part of my story, it is part of who I am today. I learned a lot there, while it was an expensive lesson, they are all pretty expensive in one way or another.
As I said earlier, I wasn’t dedicated to my shop, I only gave it a portion of my time, I passed the work load off and I wasn’t willing to do what I had to to make it work. Can you relate in any area of your life? Are you giving all you can to your relationships, are you willing to do what you have to to make amends with your loved ones, do you pass your work load off and not give 100%, are you dedicated to your relationship with Christ. I let a lot of areas suffer as a result of lacking in these areas, really examine yourself. What can you do? Where is your life leading you? Give him all that you have, it is more than worth it.
You can either choose to let your past bother you with regret and pain or you can choose to allow reconfiguration in your life in a way that only God can. Let your past show you where you are today, I’ve been asked before if I would change any of my past if I could. The answer is absolutely not! It has made me the person I am today, and I love that person. I love myself, I think that it is ok to admit especially since that has not always been something that I can say confidently.
I used to make living life so hard, I only wanted my way. I am serious, it was either my way or the highway. I thought I knew best, better than God, my friends, my parents, my spouse. I was waiting for everyone to change when the person who really needed a course correction was me. I am so grateful I turned my life around, I am so grateful that I take myself out of the equation and look at others. I try to look at life from other points of view, not from a narrow mind that only sees one way.
Life is so much easier and more fun. I barely make a schedule so I’m not upset when my course takes a different turn. I mainly just go with the flow of life and go where God is leading me. Each day is really a gift for us, that is something I learned through my Dad’s cancer diagnosis. At first, it was so scary, then I began to realize that we are all terminal. Our days our numbered, all we can do is live each one to the fullest. Another great looking back moment, my Dad is healed. Amen. (God is always there)
FREEDOM!!! It can be yours, reach out and grab it.
Look back today with a thankful heart and begin your journey home…