So true, I almost always know what I should do but do I do it? Odds are 50/50. Sometimes, 80/20, it just depends. Funny how yesterday I wrote on obedience and then I struggled with it today. Hmm, wonder how that happens?
I woke up early and I have mentioned on here before how much I love the quiet of the morning, however I made the conscious choice not to get up. The main reason is because I didn’t want to wake the dog and have to take her out, how could I seriously let that rob me of the most precious time of the day, well I did! So I woke up with little time to spare, trying to squeeze it in, I snapped at Cobe because he was so chatty and a bit moody himself. Then, I felt bad, Allen’s day was off to a rocky start and we didn’t begin our days in the same zip code, another added stress, some other small issues and I’m letting the day defeat me and it wasn’t 9 am yet!
It happens that easy, now I’m finally getting a second to breath and read my devotion in peace and where am I, waiting for my yearly check up?. Rolling with life’s punches today peeps, I was a bit selfish with my time, then what was worse is how I beat myself up that I chose sleep. No, it’s not the end of the world, but that’s all it takes for me to get a little off kilter. What about you? Does life rush up on you, before you know it, things are out of control and why? That is the big question, how did we get here? I know better, I know what to do to prevent it but chose not to.
Obedience is a choice, we have to make it. Sometimes, our sanity depends on it. I could feel the rushing welling up in me, the endless to do list screaming at me, I was caving. Then I was finally forced to stop and now I am just breathing. It comes back to choices, most of us know what to do but doing it is the tricky part.
We need to be doers not just knowing or saying what we need to do, we have to put action behind it, be intentional. For a long time I was really, really guilty of this. Always having good ideas and NEVER following though, it honestly drove me crazy about myself. I still do it to some degree, but I have gotten better, more intentional. I speak it, I share it, so I’m accountable to see it through. I used to always bale at the last-minute on things because I was scared of commitment, I’m growing. I will never get it right every time but putting my best efforts forward is helping me.
So, I want to encourage you to seek out where you need to do better at being obedient and when you figure it out, get busy. Don’t make any excuses, start doing it. Go forth, believe in yourself, it took me a while to get the nerve up to start blogging but when I began to be obedient in this area, I am seeing God at work everywhere in everything.
Obedience is changing my perspective.
Let it change your life and perspective, God wants our best, not our sloppy seconds. After all, He is worth so much more. I believe I’ll wake up early tomorrow, learn today’s lesson and use it give it another go.