I recently saw a post on Facebook from a couple who were celebrating their 14th anniversary, they were professing their genuine love for one another, it was sweet. I read entries at different times in the day from both of them and they both were very meaningful but, both included that a few years ago they didn’t know if their marriage was going to make it. That statement caught me by surprise, because from the outside looking in, they were the perfect picture of what I thought love, family, and marriage looked like.
It made me think of my own life, from the outside looking in what does it look like. What characteristics does it display? To the onlooker, it could look great or terrifying, depends on what your personality is, I guess. We have many small details that form our picture, but if you look at the big things and chase after the good parts it is a very exciting story. It’s two people chasing after God’s will for their lives, leaving our preconceived notions of what we thought this life would look like behind. Going with God to some amazing places, we had never really given our plans to God and let Him do all of the work. He is painting a beautiful picture! He is fulfilling all of the desires of our hearts, desires we had buried. We are stepping out of our comfort zones big time.
How did we get here, if I’m honest, our plans failed! So, in our weakness, we had no choice but to turn our hearts toward God. We waited until that was basically all we had left, it is sad to say, however it is simply just part of our story now. It is the spaces in between each major moment that got us where we are today, we still at times try to pick up all of our burdens and when we do, chaos and fear seep in, and they do it quickly! IF we are truly trusting God with our lives, then we must do just that. Give it to Him. Not just part-time, but full-time! We need to trust Him all of the time, every time. I lived with one foot in and one foot out for a while, however in all aspects of our life we are essentially going ALL IN!
We are moving, we are going in God’s will. It is exciting, scary, faith-filled; it is everything. We are chasing after true happiness. God is changing us, He is doing what He wants and we are allowing Him to. That is a huge part of obedience, not just hearing, but doing. Oh yes, it is scary! Sometimes, I am scared of quiet time, because I know that I am going to have to move and stop being still. When I move, He moves, it is complete satisfaction for me.
I think if we all look at our lives through God’s lens, we will see what we are hoping for. Don’t pick apart all of the details, look at the big picture. The details are messy, but they are necessary to produce the big picture. What I’m trying to say, is that we should leave the details to Him, we can’t possibly fill them all in, but He can. The details are the turmoil, stress, joy, scariness, tear filled moments, these are the areas we have to trust to God to get to our big picture.
I’ve mentioned before, the move for us into my parent’s basement was a necessary move at the time, the next step into the camper was another big leap of faith. It was complicated, each step of Allen’s work and gas line process has been trying. We have fretted over things that we can’t control, we have swiped control right out of God’s hands and tried it on our own, many more times than I would like to admit. However, these are the places we have grown, these are the places that God reminds us of the big picture. The places that we have learned the most. He has not brought us this far, filled in all of these “details” to watch us fail. No, we have to TRUST him full-time and go in His will full-time.
We are now getting to live out our calling, fear still tries to creep in but we see it for what it is. The big picture for us living the life that we are supposed to, it is essentially a snap shot of where we want to be. We want to be living a life of meaning and purpose. One that mirrors an example of Christ for our children to grow and be all that God has called them to be. They are a big motivation for us, we realized our life for what it was, and it was hectic, time consuming, stealing time from us, so we pulled the reigns and started over. It’s never too late for a do-over. It was messy and complicated, it was so worth it! It is definitely a story that only God could orchestrate.
What does your picture look like, not the one you show, but the real one? Are you happy with it? I hope the answer is yes, if it’s not it can be. You have to be willing to make the first move toward Christ and He will simply pick you up and take you on your best journey yet. Be honest with yourself here, your life depends on it. Every step won’t be easy, but He will be there to help you see it through.
The cool thing about the couple I was talking about in the beginning of this post is that they have made it in this married life and tough trials through the love of Christ. It is simply a must…