I feel like “Why” is a common question that we all ask God from time to time, or maybe day to day, hour to hour? I know I have asked Him that my fair share of times. There are many questions that I have that have gone unanswered or at least I thought they went unanswered. However, when I look back I can see how clearly He has and always will be there for me. Just as He is there for you too.
For just a moment look back with me, into this picture of my life. Last Spring, we were desperate to make a move, any move! We had put ourselves into a hopeless position in life. I prayed many nights and days for help, some days I would trust God and some I just felt like He was dealing us some cruel and unusual punishment. There were so many unanswered prayers, questions, times of wondering if we weren’t just supposed to live our life doomed by our circumstances and poor choices. Was this it? Is this going to be the story of our lives? Sometime in there, we threw our hands up and relinquished control to God. I can’t give you an exact turning point, but in our desperation, we came to Him, gave Him our life, our circumstances, our finances, our decisions, our EVERYTHING!
We started doing what He moved us to do, we didn’t understand one thing that was going on. We were just being obedient, it was taking us places we had never been, down paths that would try us on every turn. It was taking us out of our comfort zones, it is hard to describe. Two people who like, more like love being in control, just passing the baton off. It was our only hope and our last prayer, it is shaping us to be the people we were called to be. God is doing things in our life that we had only imagined before, our dreams are literally unfolding in front of our eyes. Our dreams and goals have changed, the people who got married in June 2003 are not the same dreamers that we are today. We wanted things, big things, nice things, statements to be bold that we had somehow made it. As we chased that life down and made it happen, we lost who we were in the process. We had some weird goal and were out to prove something to someone who I don’t even think was watching, or really who “they” were. When we took ourselves out of the equation and let Gods plan go to work, things started lining up. I remember in days of trying to keep the faith amidst life’s realities saying to Allen, one day were going to look back on this and say remember when… and we will be in a better place and have learned from our mistakes and failures.
Well, looking back today, I can say we have arrived at that better place. No, not every struggle has come to an end, but we are moving in God’s direction. He is taking off with our lives, He is in control, we simply can not fail if he is the leader of our household.
In John 15:1-5, Jesus says. If ” I am the vine and the Father is the gardener.”. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will even be more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have already spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing.”
God was just “gardening us”, pruning away all of the bad branches that were not meant to be so the good ones could shine through. We had to be willing for Him to do what He needed. We did not understand “WHY”, we are simply not going to always understand, that is why He is God and we are not. We just have to remain in Him, and trust His plan.
We can not only come to Him in need, we must build a relationship with God. No branch can bear fruit by itself, it must remain in the vine. He can not just be a God of convenience for you, He must be part of your lifestyle.
Don’t be stubborn like we were, we pushed and resisted until we had no other hope or choice. God quickly picked us up out of the muck and mire, He loved us when we didn’t deserve it, just as He will you. Stop your struggle today, give it to Him. Trust it to Him, He already knows the outcome, so don’t waste your time trying to change it. Just trust.
We trusted when my Dad was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, we didn’t want to believe it but we trusted, He is turning 77 today!
We trusted when Allen’s parents went through some very difficult situations, addiction, suicide… God prevailed. They are bearing much fruit for the Kingdom of God through their lives stories.
We trusted when God said, sell your house, move into your parents house, buy a camper, WHAT! God has provided for us in ways I can’t explain, we are breaking ground on a shop and place to live within the next month.
We trusted when God laid it on our heart to put in a 3 mile gas line. God has provided every step of the way, we are cutting a ribbon tomorrow to signify the projects completion.
We can not always see what is happening in the midst of our trials, but if we will simply let Him be God, He will work it all out for our best. He made each of us for a very specific reason, let HIM show you why.
Quit trying to do everything on your own, you will only wear your self out! Stop trying to answer “Why”, He will answer it in His own way.
We simply can’t see the whole picture, just one day at a time.