Just when I think I’ve got this thing figured out, I realize umm no I don’t! Yesterday started so beautifully, and then real life kicked in. I love sharing ideas on here that I have swirling in my mind that maybe I can bring you guys some peace and comfort navigating through this life. However, yesterdays post was for me. How can that happen, ha! It made me realize that I have to be so intentional, we all do if we want to attain true peace and joy. I want that more than ever for myself and those that I share this world with.
I just get in the way! When I have a “light bulb” idea, I am sure that I am right and I am so stubborn. Every road block thrown at me, I jump as high as I can with such a feeling of accomplishment. Yesterday they were piling up so high, I couldn’t even see over them to jump and it left me defeated. I had to try super hard not to let it affect the way I treated my family, after all I had done this to myself. Taking no reasoning into consideration, Allen really tries and days like yesterday make me even more thankful for such a loving, caring, patient husband. It was hard for me to admit that my desires and impatience of God’s timing had clouded my judgment. If you know me, you know that I will go to great links to get my way. I almost hit a dog, like in almost inches away, I broke my new tablet, I hit my head, our dog ate something dangerous for her, I could go on; but will stop there. All of these things happened as a result of my actions and not just accepting where I was in the process. I had to throw my hand in because I didn’t like the way it was going.
We hit a brick wall yesterday, however, I say all of this to say. The way that we handled this was magnificent. We relied on God, even though He could clearly see that we were trying our hardest to take a short cut and not follow through with His plan for this moment. He picked us up when we eventually gave this all over to Him, there was no harsh judgment, no I told you so, nope! Just love…understanding…peace…and every other feel good emotion. Our situation didn’t change one bit, we did. We committed our problems to God and to fulfill His process, we learned a lesson that we have been taught 57 times. We have to be willing to go through things we don’t understand, and we don’t get short cuts. We have to go through each little thing, persevere!
On part of our brick wall, we could have avoided every hardship but we chose not to. We wanted our way to be the way, so we are dealing with the consequences that we created for ourselves! We are learning, we all are! On the other part, same lesson, just be happy with Gods timing. I tend to want my way, too often. I hope that this speaks to your struggles today, God has his own timing, we just need to live our part of the story and trust.
We were able to end our night on a beautiful note, an amazing sunset on the edge of our new property. We flew foam airplanes and played with our new drone. It was just what we needed, I am always thankful for nights where we are just us. No cell phone service, just the 4 of us and a beautiful sunset, thanks to God loving on us just as we needed.
We can never understand everything, were not supposed to. We have to use the skills that God has given to us, iron sharpens iron. God uses Allen and I to sharpen one another, we have to step out of our comfort zones and do what he prompts us to do. I always say to Allen that we can face any problem because we have one another, that is so true. I wouldn’t trade anything for our love, a love that God has ordained. I pray you can trust God to orchestrate your life and not try to be in control. He is going to have the final say anyway, the sooner you realize that, the better off you will be. Amen!